Today is the 17th anniversary of my miscarriage. Most people have no idea. I don’t talk about it except when I am with women and the subject comes up and then it’s #metoo. In my lifetime, more than half the women I know have gone through this loss. It is an all over the place emotional sisterhood. We just support each other in silence as our stories are very different on this one.
My necklaces came to me oddly and they are not real. Something in each aside from the bling that spoke to me.
The T is my initial by coincidence-ish. Tracy and Tracy are a given.
The most important part of the T is TRUTH and TRUST (trustworthy, trusting and the rest of list.) All subtly different but all powerful.
The other one is me, my lost child and the sparkle I have to share with the world. I have been drawn to wearing these 2 non-stop for a week now. It was a spiritual security blanket as mentally I knew a sad time was coming with that moon and all that Venus energy. I am a Taurus (that T is always there) so Venus is my ruler.
Today my wonderful friend who writes msg signs on a yard chalkboard each day with a doggie water bowl for her community to enjoy hit me with the perfect one to make this sad anniversary better. She wrote about another child Sahara who died of cancer on this same day in 2009. Sahara was a special young lady who left us too soon. She was special to all and touched RS’s heart too so much that he wrote 2 songs for her on his Venus in Overdrive album.
That album out of now where played on my ipad the other day and I was reminded of how great the album was. Good stuff and it brought so many friends my world. Then I remembered on Saturday I was putting a face on one of my mom’s crochet girls. The doll had no hair and the knit cap kept falling off and I immediately thought of cancer children, survivors and a few hopeful ideas. Now I know it was Sahara taking care of my lost child and looking over me.
In my lifetime, there are no coincidences. Things may not make sense in the moment, but for me there is always a bond to something beyond. When that happens, I know all is ok.
I go with the energy flow and what makes my soul feel right at this point in my life.
Thank you always RS! You may live with Mr. D., but your spirit is always angelic for me. And thank you Sahara and the other souls for watching over me.
Venus in Overdrive ……. by Rick Springfield
Alone in a world of 6 billion
I was feeling my soul rust
Yeah I saw that everything was broken
Everything was ashes, everything was dust………………. here’s me thinking love can never survive, you showed up Venus in Overdrive.
Saint Sahara
Come on, close the book and turn out the light
Put your plans aside tonight
Yeah I know it’s not wrong but it sure isn’t right
An angel bids a last ‘goodnight’ to us
Come on Sahara, give us a smile.
You’ve walked this far with us lets walk one more mile
Hey Saint Sahara, beautiful child.
You left us all wanting, you left us beguiled
Mi Ma Mi
Mi Ma Mi
Mi Ma Mi
Mi Ma Mi
You take your solace where you find it
Dress the wound and tightly bind it
You so want the past but you can’t rewind it
And she sleeps with angels tonight
Come on Sahara, give us that smile
You’ve walked this far with us lets walk one more mile
Hey Saint Sahara, beautiful child.
You played you best hand but the Joker was wild
Mi Ma Mi Mi Ma Mi Mi Ma Mi Mi Ma Mi
Come on Sahara Hey Saint Sahara
Come on Sahara, you fought the good fight.
Baby let go, everything’s all right
Come on Sahara Hey Saint Sahara
Hey Saint Sahara Yeah Come on Sahara beautiful child
Songwriters: Springthorpe Richard Lewis, Bissonette Matt
Ocean City, MD Sept 24, 2009
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